Thursday, May 3, 2012

Photo-heart connection, number IV


Some photo-heart connections aren't so easy. In fact
this one was quite hard as I had several photos that really spoke to me
this month. I guess partly because they all spoke the same thing.

I've been struggling in a situation where I have felt completely unaccepted, and have
for a very long time. I have often felt like just a flickering light in an expansive room,
wanting so badly to be seen and heard . . . recognized for who I am.




Wondering . .  what is it that they see in my reflection.
Do they look straight through me, do they see me at all?
Because I'm not an empty space . . . and like everyone I have many layers.
I too have a light . . .
  I am who I am, I feel the way I feel, I don't apologize for that.

But I feel like instead of accepting what was offered
I have been rejected because I don't meet expectations.

I've let this sit for a few days wondering if I should even post this.
But it's my truth, and my reality,
and I suppose I just needed to get it out there, to let it go.

And then today I went to the beach,
 and out of the blue during a conversation with a stranger she told me I was interesting.

I felt somehow validated, I felt some peace.

Love, Kim
XO




 


12 comments:

Kathy said...

Oh Kim, I wish you could "see" yourself thru MY eyes. I think u r one of the most interesting and multi talented people I have met in a LONG time!!! And I consider it a blessing to be able to call you my friend :)

Jeanne said...

Kim I love your photo, and think that it is so good to be able to express feelings like this. Don't you think that we all feel like this at times? I think that there are times when all of us feel unaccepted, solitary, and like an unseen person in life. Think that we are especially prone to this when we are creative people. You are not alone....

Deanna said...

I just want to hold your hand and give you a big hug and tell you that you are lovely, interesting, talented, witty, intelligent, talented (I know I said that twice, but you are that talented!!) Whoever this is making you feel invisible, then they are blind. I hope I made myself perfectly clear!!

Kathryn Dyche Dechairo said...

Such a heartfelt post, it gave me goose bumps. I hear you and see you and love you just the way you are.

Laura Delegal - Leroy Photography said...

Oh, Kim, those words dig deep. I'm so sorry. You ARE worthy. You ARE perfect. You ARE who God created you to be. YOU have touched me with your words. God bless you.

Paula said...

What a powerful post, and image, as well. You touched my heart, and you made me wonder how many folks I've not really "seen" for who and what they truely are. You seem to be an amanzing woman, and I hope that you begin to get the recognition and love you deserve!

Tamara said...

your photo matched with these words is so perfect. it's hard to not judge ourselves through the eyes of others. kudos to the stranger who brought you some peace. we all need to be able to let our heartlight shine no matter what others might think or say. :)

Deborah L. Tisch said...

Powerful, powerful words. This image just speaks of that longing to be seen.

What I see in this reflection is that this little light is shining and the darkness can not hide it. And those who wish to look to that light will surely see it for all of it's glorious beauty.

Sending you blessings and lots of love...

Becs said...

Fabulous image and I love your words, so moving and powerful.

Janet Bocciardi said...

omg Kim... To know you as I know you - through emails and your posts... your light is bright. I don't see it as a small flickering candle. I see it as a beach fire - something I want to sit around to find warmth, listen to the crackle and pops, and stare at its ever changing form as the layers are burned away.

Cathy H. said...

Kim, I'm glad you decided to post this! I know I feel this way sometimes! I find you to be an amazing photographer, woman, and friend!! I always look forward to visiting with you on your blog!! Let that light shine bright and strong, just like you are!!

Kat Sloma said...

Kim, I can't even imagine how people would not see you as interesting! From your images and words here I see you as a wonderful person. I am so glad to have gotten to know you. It's in sharing the vulnerabilities, like you did here, that we begin to see the real person underneath. Thank you for sharing in the Photo-Heart Connection. Sorry I'm late in coming by!

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