Some photo-heart connections aren't so easy. In fact
this one was quite hard as I had several photos that really spoke to me
this month. I guess partly because they all spoke the same thing.
I've been struggling in a situation where I have felt completely unaccepted, and have
for a very long time. I have often felt like just a flickering light in an expansive room,
wanting so badly to be seen and heard . . . recognized for who I am.
Wondering . . what is it that they see in my reflection.
Do they look straight through me, do they see me at all?
Because I'm not an empty space . . . and like everyone I have many layers.
I too have a light . . .
I am who I am, I feel the way I feel, I don't apologize for that.
But I feel like instead of accepting what was offered
I have been rejected because I don't meet expectations.
I've let this sit for a few days wondering if I should even post this.
But it's my truth, and my reality,
and I suppose I just needed to get it out there, to let it go.
And then today I went to the beach,
and out of the blue during a conversation with a stranger she told me I was interesting.
I felt somehow validated, I felt some peace.